Many days I say the following thing..."Ugh...I have no motivation to get up and go outside." And it seems as of lately, that phrase has been uttered more days than not.
It's extremely tough to...okay let me take a little detour here. After typing "It's extremely tough to..." I opened up facebook and scrolled through posts for about 10 minutes. What the hell?! I clearly can't even find the motivation to finish a thought, let alone a blog post.
Okay...back to the story. So most days it's incredibly tough to find the motivation to head outside and do the chores that have been piling up over the winter. Here in the Pacific Northwest, we are blessed (or cursed depending on how you look at it) with rain...and most winters...lots of it. Now I feel it's a bit more of a curse because when the ground is super saturated, there is no where for the water to go. And on top of that, all the animals are knee deep in mud and muck. *barf*
Daylight hours on winter days are excruciatingly short here, but now that we've past the midpoint, the days are slowly getting longer. And when the sun comes out, Mikey sees all the things that need to be done...and what does that mean? It means that Brian will now have to find the motivation to get up off his ass and start doing things.
We've had some great sunshine in the past few weeks, and I've slowly started chipping away at the list of chores. But it seems like there is always a setback. For instance, several weeks ago I went down to do morning chores only to find a 50 foot tall section of our maple tree had snapped off in the middle of the night due to the heavy snow and crashed across the driveway and on the roof of the shop. And so began the *new* chore, getting said tree removed. It seems like when I finally get motivated to work on things, something else always rears its head.
But the biggest thing that I've let fall by the wayside is eating healthy and exercising. A few years ago I set out on a journey to lose weight. I made this decision after not being happy with what I saw in the mirror, in fact...I started avoiding the mirror all together. I felt uncomfortable in my clothes. I hated the way I looked in things, and I just hated feeling gross. So I set out to lose weight. And I did just that. Losing weight isn't necessarily the hardest thing...it's keeping it off that really tests a person.
Well over the last 6 months our lives have been hectic and I've just neglected myself. And I've gained back most, if not all, of the weight I lost. And I'm back in that place where I don't like what I see. So today I did what I've been putting off...I weighed myself **gulp**and went for a 5 mile walk. I prepared a healthy lunch and am getting ready to make a healthy dinner.
We all fall off the wagon every now and again, but it's up to us to get dust ourselves off and jump back on. We can't allow ourselves to continue to dislike where are at, and not do anything to change it. But we can't make changes unless WE are the ones who want them. My doctor told me I needed to lose weight, but until I finally hit my breaking point...that didn't matter. You can't do this for anyone but you. And you have to dig down deep to find the motivation...it's there...but it's buried. And no matter what don't kick yourself while you are down. So what if you had a bad day, lets see what tomorrow brings. I've learned to take life one day at a time. When I gave up pop several years ago (I've since gave up giving up pop lolol) I told myself...lets see if I can go today without having one. And the next day I thought the same thing. When you tell yourself that you will never have something again...if for some reason you slip up, you feel like you've failed. Don't set yourself up for failure, set yourself up to accomplish things.
Now I don't know if any of my ramblings have made any sense or not, but these are all the things that have been running through my head. I started a FaceBook group called "RHOSC Getting Healthy" last year and it's a wonderful community of people who are there to support each other in this journey. I let it fall by the wayside the past few months, but today I did a video and talked about where I'm at. And come to find out...several of us are in the same boat. And several people have said that me finding the motivation has given them a reason to find it as well. That's what a community is all about. We aren't there to shame one another when we trip up, we offer a helping hand and a hug.
I feel extremely grateful to have such a wonderful support network, something I know some people don't have. And I hope that this post has helped you to look deep inside yourself and find the motivation to do what you've been putting off. And most importantly...I hope that you will find the motivation to look in the mirror and love the person looking back at you.
Until next time...Keep cookin!